ALBUM LYRICS

October Rain

The rain pulls me awake
on this warm Autumn morning
the melancholy sky of grey
comforts like a cave

You didn’t stay last night
and maybe that’s the right thing
letting go is truly for the brave

Many times I tried
to pick up the pieces
of this broken moon we left
hanging in the sky

I have no illusions
only disappointments
there’s only so much you can do
until it’s time to say goodbye
say goodbye...

October rain
the bitter knowing change
so let’s make love before the
snows fall from the sky
we both saw the sunrise and both felt the pain
now let it wash away October rain

As the cold wind blows us
through this narrow winter
and the fallen leaves of what we hoped for
lay upon the ground

I hope you will remember
the beauty of the summer
when I found you in the garden
with your brown hair hanging down

Sometimes love is wary
and hides within the fallows
and slips into the darkness
like a moon upon the wane

But you still found the way
through the tangled weeds and brambles
So I will always think of you
in the autumn when it 

©2012 Robin Jackson

The Spring

Once the streets were paved with gold
a precious world oh to behold
and from the dusty ground, 
you evoked the sound
caused flowers too unfold

When the summers turned to fall
you were with us through it all
a ring upon the bell
that echoed through the shell
of winter’s call

Now that you’re away
I feel you every day

Some days were hard to win
we never knew what fate would spin
you filled my cup with grace
and held a steady face
when the ice grew thin

When the branches began to crack
we knew there was no looking back
soon all our hopes and dreams
were tearing at the seams
light fading into black

You told us to let go
the current pulls  below
like sunlight on the snow
into the silent river you will flow
and we’ll find you in the water, I know

There was a time when I never
thought that you would leave my side
and through the shadows you would find the way
And even though you held on tight
I can see your fading light
is stronger now that you‘ve gone away

Tangled roots and history
shadows deep within the tree
shackles from the past
broken way at last
found peace eternally

When Azrael unfolds her wings
for you, a gateway to the spring
that bubbles from the ground,
once a fearful sound now
taught us words to sing

You told us to let go
the current pulls below
like sunlight on the snow
into the silent river you will flow
and we’ll find you in the water, I know

© Copyright 2012  

Roses and Gold

Moonshine, oh cover me in moonshine
and I will fill your cup with sentimental tales of raspberry wine
'cause I’ve been singing these cowboy tears since we came to an end
and Im writing snake oil poems and drinking alabast gin
Like a kite in the wind
I’m caught in a spin
I’m out on a limb

Sweet dreams oh cover me in sweet dreams
and I will paint you a story of roses and gold and bittersweet things
It’s time to say hello to these lonesome lullabies
and ride into the journey of a new sunrise
And may our river of tears
wash away all our fears
and make it perfectly clear

Sweet pie, oh mama make me some sweet pie
fill it with whatever makes it better and will cause my eyes to dry
I pray to Mother Mary, great spirit and the holy fool
That we listen to each other and take heed of the golden rule
That you do unto me
what I do unto you
and we both see it through

Soft grace, oh cover me in soft grace
and I’ll fashion you a cup of forgiveness, gypsum, nettle and lace
'cause the poetry that you’ve put inside my heart
rattles like a ‘57 engine about to start
Like a kite in the wind
I’m caught in a spin
I’m out on a limb

Rain dance oh do a little rain dance
call in the clouds and thunder to wash away this sorrowful trance
and we’ll bath in rose petal fire while the whill-o-whisps sing
and purify our eyes with water from the holy spring
And in the days that were old
may the story that’s told
be one of Roses and Gold

© Copyright 2012  

Paper Bird

I plant stories on paper ships and send them out to sea drift
each one holds a part of the story of our hearts
inky vessels of sweet remembering, 
one last trip and then descending

Paper bird your wings are light
carry hardship out of sight
salty moonshine, morning bell
fly these troubles away across the swell

August introduced us, December came between
tales never told, rust gathered on the gold
the months, they never really knew
the state of things below the blue

The mussels wait with patience
these tales bitter like ocean wine
tears of past and anchors cast
soon mixed within the brine

Paper bird your wings are light
carry hardship out of sight
salty moonshine, morning bell
fly these troubles away across the swell
Lay your axe down by the spring
listen to the starbirds sing
the sweetest sound I ever heard
fly away oh paper bird

And now the bird she flies beneath
frosty snow capped cries, gusty clouds
of grey watch as I cast words away
release this heart from bygone pain
and welcome sunrise once again

©Copyright 2012

Heroin and Honey

We stood on Sandy Avenue
two lovers broken by the rain
this fiery love we tried to leave
but still the coals remain

Your touch it played my skin that night
like a burning violin
I was strung out on your tune
a lover’s heroin

We tried so very hard
to get this love to grow
but I could not hold your crazy wind
which never ceased to blow

You lit a candle in my soul
that singes to this day
and even though it burns me so
I can not walk away

Darling, darling, let me tell you true
there’s something burning
in my heart because of you
Darling, darling, oh, this fire it grew
and now it’s burning
in my heart because of you

A gust of Indian summer wind
wrapped confusion ‘round the night
the stars told me to kiss you
the moon warned to take flight

And when I thought to leave you
temptation played its part
a dancing swarm of drunken bees
put honey in our hearts

We looked so very hard for the steps
to dance among the stones
but we tripped into the shadows
made of sparks and bones

And when I sought to hold you  
in the cracks you slipped between
and when I tried to cool this fever
the water turned to steam

Darling, darling, let me tell you true
there’s something burning
in my heart because of you
Darling, darling, oh, this fire it grew
and now it’s burning
in my heart because of you

© Copyright 2012  

Red Blanket

There is a place where Heaven meets land
I used to find you there wearing a blanket of red
Wrapped up in silence, woven from past
grandmother’s stitches gave you peace at last

Woken at midnight I stumbled through dreams
once scared and shaken
you sewed back my seams
Holding me closely singing Blinken and Nod
I asked what you were doing
you said talking to God

The stories you played with me all fun and games
while you wrestled with demons you never told me their names
The lessons you taught me I still hold today
when looking for answers go to the infinite way

The shadows they danced on history’s wall
but you stopped the cycle
they never touched me at all
So please when you speak to God
while on your bed
give him my thanks
from your blanket of Red

©Copyright 2012

That Time of Night Again

I want you, you want me
but you never come around
I watch the sea, wait patiently
the waves my only sound

Thoughts spin and twirl like a dancing girl
or leaves in the autumn breeze
They pass me by I lose my mind
these thoughts were never meant to be

But there’s a time when thoughts like these
are offered places at my table to sit
You said farewell, and left a spell
oh now it’s that time of night again isn’t it

On that first night you lit a candle bright
and swooned inside my head like alcohol
but in this dream somethin’ came between
and now that candle’s casting shadows on the wall

Oh poets write on stormy nights
and singers in the barrooms they will wail
of all the times loves made us stand in line
another chapter to this unrequited tale

And now my hope is dangling by a rope
and the wind’s blown out this candle love has lit
And all that’s left to me is my own company
and now it’s that time of night again isn’t it

©Copyright 2012

The Royal Hotel

Under the bridge by the Royal Hotel
I held you there as the stars they fell
and the night wrapped its arms
‘round this fleeting affair
as if it tried to keep us there

The streetlamp covered us in dirty gold
your lips were hot against the cold
and your hair a black raven
into my hands it fell
under the bridge by the Royal Hotel

Oh marry me tonight
and the moon will be our ring
and cover you in white
and soot drawn from the rain
and though you say you wish to be
the night next to my day
still you fly away, why don’t you stay

Under the bridge by the Royal Hotel
I held you there while the stars they fell
and maybe we got lucky
like two pennies in a well
under the bridge by the Royal Hotel

Oh we danced a broken tango
by the wall
and the barkeeps pouring tears
and there’s ghosts up in the hall

And the piano in the montage
knew it all along
cause sometimes love
just doesn’t last that long

In room 19 a man’s about to cheat
in room 05 her vows
are on the sheets
and outside on the sidewalk you’ve left a lasting spell
under the bridge by the Royal Hotel

The Wish

I put another quarter in the wishing well
I prayed to the dark and down it fell
Down in the watery deep
are promises no one can keep

I’ve spent so many diamonds my crowns almost bare
And the patches on my heart are sewn on with care
And every time that I hit the floor
I keep coming back for more

Buy me a ticket on this one way train
'cause the only way to love is again and again
And I’m riding the rails through this hurricane
let it rain, oh let it rain
Take a whisper from my lips and breath from my chest
Steal a beat from my heart put my soul to the test
I lay my guns in the ground and my lies to the west
let it rest, oh let it rest

I once stole sunshine from a desert dream
I once went fishing in a dried up stream
I held mountains in my hand
I wasn’t careful and they turned to sand

I came across a sweet magnolia flower
that smelled as soft as the midnight hour
She stole diamonds from my dreams
and wore them like a Zingara queen

And may our scars be as pretty as a pink ole’ Texas sky
and soft and tender like the whisper of a jackalope’s sigh
and when we light new candles
and our old ghosts haunt us on
may the flames burn them
away with the dawn

I met Aphrodite on a summer’s day
through weeds and the brambles she showed me the way
and left a glass crystal in my soul
that echoed like a singing bowl

I rode to edge of a canyon deep
where the wind was so strong it knocked it me off of my feet
Like a banshee out in the storm
I knew again I’d been reborn

©Copyright 2012

This Time

The night once was young
just like you and I
and love we thought we’d never lose
A picture of perfection
we painted on our eyes
always looking for something new

And now time has dealt its hand
and here we are still standing
waiting for our ships to come in
And the streets are getting lonely and the the wind whispers if only
well maybe it’s time for if only to begin

So raise up your flag
put the moon in your sack
forgive and let go and never look back
‘Cause time won’t wait for us
to get it perfectly right
so if you’re willing
I’ll dance with you tonight

And I can see that you’ve
been here as long as I
ao many times fell from this carousel
the tears in our clothing
every bump from the ride
we’ve got to know ourselves far too well

So darling life is short
and the sun is moving faster
so put your lipstick on
or we’re headed for disaster
And I think it’s safe to say that
we’re both a work in progress
so let’s put down our pride
before we miss the boat again

So raise up your flag
put the moon in your sack
Forgive and let go and never look back
‘Cause time wont wait for us
to get it perfectly right
So if you’re willing
I’ll dance with you tonight

Put stars in your flask
tell the band to play
Stop waiting around for
the perfect sunny day
Let’s make love in the rain
like the very first time
and I promise to you
I’ll stay this time
Oh this time.....

©2012
 

LADY WISCONSIN 

You brought the cold wind, late in September
Don’t you remember
This was the beginning of the end 

You caught my heart, I tried to run
You shot love through a smoking gun
Blood poured out, and I tried to pretend 

Sometimes It’s beautiful, meant to be
Sometimes it’s a beautiful tragedy
I guess this time, we’ll have to wait and see

Cause I fell in love with Lady Wisconsin
I fell in love with Lady Wisconsin
And I’m pretty sure, she fell in love with me

We danced in the sun, we laid in the grass
I wished that time would never pass
These bells were ringing loudly from the start 

We smoked thunder from a broken bone
Rode our bikes the long way home
Got lost in the storm, but you couldn’t lose my heart

Honey moon, she cried tears
You said I’ll see you in 15 years
But threads like these don’t break so easily 

‘Cause I fell in love with Lady Wisconsin
I fell in love with Lady Wisconsin
And I’m pretty sure she fell in love with me

You said you wanted me to be your man         
But you had shackles on your hands
The wind on the great lakes cried above our heads

You tried to take me to the shore
But I couldn't take any more
And soon the autumn leaves will all be dead

Sometimes It’s a beautiful rhapsody
Sometimes it’s a beautiful tragedy
I guess this time, we’re just not meant to be 

Cause I fell in love with Lady Wisconsin
I fell in love with Lady Wisconsin
And I’m pretty sure she fell in love with me

©2017

DRIFTING AT SEA

August Winds a-blowing
Gust through my door
It might as well be snowing
You're not here any more

Into the desert you've taken
A sweet heart of me
Please be careful don't break it
I'm drifting at sea

It's lonely here without you
Getting too dark for me
No idea how much I'd miss you
A-drifting at sea

And so this picture is painted
In light pinks and blues
And for the dawn I am waiting
A sunrise of you

Oh say hello to the stars
Sing a sweet melody
And I will listen while drifting
A drifting at sea

It's lonely here without you
Getting too dark for me
No idea how much I'd miss you
A-drifting at sea

Your love's a wave that keeps me from breaking
and washing up as debris
Without you I can't' find my way in
A-drifting at sea

©2017

BACK TO YOUR DOOR

All around the world and back
Our love is like a railroad track
We've been through the thick and thin
From Santa Cruz to East Berlin

I praise the dirt upon my feet
From every city street
That’s helped us both to come so far
Holding you under the stars

I've seen you through the darkest nights
And in the burning desert lights
I've watched you live and lose and die
Goodbye my love goodbye 

And when we part
I lay a penny on the track and I know
That wherever we may wonder
I keep on coming back
 
From Amsterdam to New Orleans
I have always know a queen
And once you crafted me a crown
I have never put it down

And there's no rings on our hands
We are bonded by a plan
That's greater than the alter
Ever could compare 

I'll dance you in a dress of blue
Till we're one hundred and two
And I’ll be yours as we return
To watch the dusty temple burn

And when we part
I lay a penny on the track and I know
That wherever we wonder
I keep on coming back

All the miles on my shoes
I'd walk a thousand more
They keep bringing me
Bringing me back to your door 

©2017

YELLOW GARDENIAS

I found you in the middle of an Indonesian market place
The sun shone diamonds upon your face
You drew upon my heart and left a trace
And then you sang a sweet refrain
Of yellow gardenias in the rain

We lost ourselves
In the space between the sunset and the wet rice fields
Where holy priests, dance among the temples where one they kneeled
A kiss as sweet as sugar cane
In the yellow gardenias in the rain

You gave me your heart
Underneath a mango tree
Built an altar at my head
And pushed my mind into the sea
I always knew I'd find you in this crazy land
God blew smoke into my soul
I found my self within the sand

We said a prayer as we looked for ceremonies in the stars above
And the crazy wind, whispered of the way we used to love
And perhaps we'll find it once again
In the yellow gardenias in the rain
©2017

GOSPEL AND GRAIN
I broke bread upon the plough man’s table
Did the good work when I was able
Found my way up when it was hard to stand up
Never gave up when the going got rough

I’ve slipped on rocks made of flint and bone
Fell into the darkness, all alone
Broken by the highway, living in despair
Never thought I’d find my way back from there

Not proud of all that I have done
Shot poison from the barrel of a smoking gun
Made a recipe of cinder and smoke
Been caught wearing the devil’s cloak 

I try to shake my shadow on the daily
But it’s a battle, takes me close to crazy
Like a snake, trying to shed it’s skin
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever win

And you kept me faithful
You took me by the hand
When I left myself for dying
The sweet Summer rain
The gospel and the grain
You are my church
And your love is sanctifying 

When I was lost, my father told me son
You won’t find God on the run
Into the rocks of the desert  or the sea
When the wind stops truth be waiting there for thee 

To find the word of a true apostle
Step into the river and listen to the gospel
All I need is this fire and sky
A dusty guitar fashioned from an alibi

Pain, she can be a teacher
Find your courage and you will learn to love her
Every scar that I’ve ever known
Takes me closer close to my home

Darkness is simply lack of light
When I was a fighter I was told to fight
But when I love, I gotta let it go
That’s the hardest truth that I’ll ever know

And you kept me faithful
You took me by the hand
When I left myself for dying
The sweet Summer rain
The gospel and the grain
You are my church
And your love is sanctifying 

©2017

BRIDGE OF ST JOHNS

Oh St Johns
With your dirty streets and you grey boots on
The wild wind, she grabbed my hand
And carried me to your ampersand 

Broken beers and pushing brooms
Old men trade tales in tired saloons
We confessed our secrets to the moon
And you know she’ll never tell
You know she’ll never tell

Oh river wide
I etched my ache into your side
I came here once again to die
As I marched across your great divide

The queen of Portsmouth built your arch
Suspended by a funeral march
We wrote our vows at Cathedral Park
And this bridge will never tell
This bridge will never tell 

Oh coal black crow
We followed your cries down Ivanhoe
December swallowed up the day
Your love was a train that would not stay

It’s hard to leave it all behind
I guess you’ll go your way and I’ll go mine
And if one day our paths align
Only time will tell
Only time will tell 

©2017

TEARS FOR THE SOUL

Oh you came so far
All alone, only sixteen
All alone, mama said be strong

You were the one, you were the one
Who bade farewell to mother Russia
Tolstoy broke your heart and set you free

You were the one who carried the torch
For your own Mishpoke
You brought your courage across the sea

Dark was the night
Cossacks shook you awake
So you took flight mama goodnight, goodnight
Light, light on the river black
Travel at dawn never to come back

You left it all you left it all
And found the shores of Boston
Where cobblestones and cousins brought you in

From brick to bone, you built a home
From the ghosts within your hands
From Latvia to land we are your Kin

A note in your hand you boarded the train
Babka in your pocket, your feet so cold
Uncle dear uncle let me forget
What soap does for the body, tears do for the soul

You left it all you left it all
And found the shores of Boston
Where cobblestones and cousins brought you in

From brick to bone, you built a home
From the ghosts within your hands  
From Latvia to land we are your Kin

©2017

SAINT VALENTINE

We sat there at the cafe
Up on Telegraph Hill
The margaritas showed no mercy
And love couldn’t foot the bill
Your words were like the barrel of a smoking gun
I knew right then that this trip was done  

We took our tears onto the grass
Outside of St. Peter’s church
On that holy day in February
When my faith turned for the worse
And the mariachi band played in the rain
And no amount of prayers will cease the pain 

Saint Valentine I think you broke your promise
This wasn’t quite the deal we had made
Now I’m out on a line, lost my heart in San Francisco  
And your tears are pouring down on my parade 

We walked on through the city
The painted ladies they took pity
On this funeral march of many
Why did you have to look so pretty?
The wind won’t cease the waning of the moon
Acceptance is a quiet, empty room 

In a crack down in the pavement
I picked you a broken flower
And the barker and the anchorman
Sang a dirge outside Coit Tower
And Valentine, why is love so hard to keep?
The ghost of your kiss burns me in my sleep

And once we were close friends
Now wearing the clothes of strangers
And the streetcar is full of lonely drunks
And I didn’t see the danger
Of letting you so far back in
And the moon over the mission is growing thin 

I held your hand as we walked to Dolores Park
And we said our final rites within the dark   
And we watched the silent fog roll into the bay
As I we said goodbye to Valentine’s Day 

©2017

GHOST UNDER MY SKIN

It just feels like a minute
Since we said farewell
I think I’m moving on
But I really can’t tell 

So now what? 
We just wait for this feeling to pass us by?
Might as well wait for
the sea to run dry 

Cause you were my best friend
But now you closed the door
And that doesn’t keep me
from loving you anymore

Cause the deeper you go
The more it cuts like a knife
Sometimes a scar
is the sacrifice 

Last night I held you in my arms for the final time
I always thought that love like this could make it through the night
I know that you wanted it as much, but you wouldn’t let it in
And now you’re just a stranger to me, a ghost under my skin 

Fool's gold, is easy to find
But you showed me something rare, I didn’t know was mine
And it ain’t easy, to put this book back on the shelf
Cause losing you is really losing a part of myself 

And I’m tired of this story
It’s old now let it burn
And with it all the pages
we’ll never turn 

Cause I’m not here to inspire you
to join me on the bridge
And though I miss your kisses
I don’t miss your ambivalence

Last night I held you in my arms for the final time
I always thought that love like this could make it through the night
I know that you wanted it as much, but you wouldn’t let it in
And now you’re just a stranger to me, a ghost under my skin
©2017

DARK STARS

I looked into your eyes
For the last time
This story half written
Never to be read

And as I closed the book
My fingers burned
With black soot
As this song it slowly bled 

And the dark stars in your eyes
Circled my heart
With their beautiful lies
That kept me coming back to you 

And as the sun went down
We smoked a wooden cigarette
You blew rings
Like the hoops you led me through 

Though your kisses were sweet
I said good bye, I said good bye
Cause the way you played this game
Was running me dry, running me dry 

This was supposed to be a love song
But now the words I guess you’ll never know
Cause we were running in circles
The only way to save us was to let go

You felt like coming home
To a place I had forgotten
Made of sweet songs
And your hands upon my head

But there was no moon that shone
The doors were locked
Secrets unspoken
Of ghosts that still lingered in your bed

Though your kisses were sweet
I said good bye, I said good bye
Cause the way you played this game
Was running me dry, running me dry 

This was supposed to be a love song
But now the words I guess you’ll never know
Cause we were running in circles
The only way to save us was to let go

And if we meet again
I’ll roll up all your kisses in a cigarette
And blow smoke rings at the moon
©2017